Thursday, December 07, 2006

I watched BigBlueEyes on Tuesday!! She's so sweet!! She's started crawling!! Can you believe it?!?! She's still not real great at it, but if she doesn't think too hard about it, she can crawl with the best of 'em!! LOL She does it best when she's on a mission, compared to conciously trying to crawl, if you know what I mean :) LOL Just so stinkin' cute :) She's a good baby, too :)

Whew!! Will somebody please remind me that I don't handle stress well, and that being in charge of the Christmas program isn't my idea of a great time when Christmas rolls around again next year? I'm crazy to actually want to do it in the first place, I'm sure of it. Just go ahead & commit me to the Loony Bin, because something's not right in my head, seriously :) hehehe I had a very emotional night tonight. It was play practice, and people didn't have their songs, none of the wisemen were there, and our set isn't really constructed, yet. Plus, we have so many shepherds that are all boys around the same age, and they're VERY hyper boys!! I'm a little nervous about the shepherds. I keep praying about it, and I keep wondering what's gonna happen. I'll actually be alright about everything once the actual "box" thing is together & stuff. I'm getting really nervous about that being put together (because I'd like it together for practice on Saturday morning, and I don't really think that's gonna happen.) Oh, well, you work with what ya got, ya know?

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I had a "run in" with BadAttitudeMyrtle tonight (DebbieDowner might be another good name for her...) Anyways, this lady is pretty negative about everything, and it drives me crazy, plus there's a bunch of other stuff, but she just set me off tonight. There was no need for her to have an attitude about what she got an attitude about, and she was just not very uplifting. Not building me up, very much a negative nelly...Wow, there are a lot of names I could come up with for her, huh? Or just a generic name for any "DebbieDowner" type personality, huh? Anyways, remember all that scenery & stuff I made for VBS this past August? Well, I made everything by hand, painted all of it, except for the cardboar I covered with "wood" contact paper to make it look like wooden logs, whatever...Well, Pastor actually hurt my feelings, because after it was all said & done he just said to pitch it all...then, there was this stuff that was totally NOT made by hand, just the pictures that came with the teachers stuff that was taped to the wall (we have a multi-purpose room & the classes were just in different parts of the room). Anyways, he says to leave THAT up because "it'll give people an idea what the kids have been up to this week at VBS." So, throw out the handpainted stuff, to my face, then tell someone else to leave the very non-personal junk up on the wall. Whatever...well, I'll admit to you, I cried, and I couldn't help it. I didn't want to cry in front of Pastor, because I felt stupid for crying in the first place, but the head director walked in on me crying & I just spilled my guts. Well, Worship Minister must've heard something about it, because he kept the God-awful snowmobile I made & it's been a joke ever since...that was my least favorite thing I made for VBS, btw. Anyways, I keep telling him to pitch it, and he kept saying, "No! We can't pitch that! It was part of my station (it kinda sat in front of the laptop & multi-media stuff, and hid the equipment). Anyways, tonight, it was sitting by the front of the sanctuary doors getting ready to be pitched. Again, I have NO problem with it being pitched, that's not the issue that got me upset. NegativeNelly says snootily, "That thing needs to be thrown away." I was offended by her tone, so I said, "You know I made that, right?" She starts going on, "I know, but there's just no where to store it here. Can you tell me when we'll use it again? Do you want it at your house?" I was shocked that she would be so rude as to say things like that to me to my face!! If she says that kind of stuff to my face, what is she saying behind my back?!! So, I didn't say anything else, really, but OH, I wanted to. She has a history of complaining, and of acting the martyr, and that was so inappropriate! So, after she walked out the door I looked at King & said, "Well, I'd better throw that God-awful snowmobile away." And literally threw it in the trash can. Okay, and here's the thing. She is one of the people who complains the loudest about things not getting done, etc..., but she shows NO respect for anything that DOES get done, and people's effort, unless she's had a hand in it. Did she do anything for VBS this year? Nope. But she would've complained if we hadn't had one. I guess it was just lack of appreciation for other people's work. I just didn't take it well, and since I'm under so much other stress for this program to go well, I know I'm overly sensitive, but still, she was rude.

Okay, sorry to unload all that, but I had to, or I would explode. And, I hope you followed that, because I'm sure it was rambly & incoherant, but again, I needed to VENT!! So, going back to put "Rant Warning" up above that...

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So, anyways, onto better things. We went to the Mall again today :) It was a lot more fun today than it was last week!! LOL At least for me...Princess ate 1/2 of her cheeseburger & 1/2 of FAB's fries (hehehe), so she got to play today!! :) YAY!! I got to hold Petunia while the girls played & she is SUCH a cuddlebug!! :) So sweet :)

We didn't really shop at the mall today. I needed to get some things ready before our play practice tonight, so we just came home & Princess fell asleep on the way home, so that was nice. She took a nice long nap, too, and I got a lot accomplished before practice. Practice itself was CHAOS, but semi-controlled chaos. The daycare toys were out, so of course I had to compete with that, but other than that, things went well. I think on Saturday before we get started, I'm gonna have the kids do these exercise things I learned in daycare inservice. The shepherds got a little (read A LOT) antsy, so I started a game of "Miss Mandy Says" to get 'em moving a little bit, at least in a controlled movement. Mr.AF came over & took over so I could get back to directing, and that was a blessing. I'm glad he stepped in. Those kids like him, anyways, he helps with the games at Awana sometimes.

So..........please pray with me that Saturday goes smoothly & that things will come together on Saturday? I'm getting nervous about the "box" thing being done for Saturday's practice...I need to call my carpenter...earthly & Heavenly :)

I'd better go...there is so much more I could share, but it's getting late, and I'm getting tired, and I really don't want to think about it right now. I really need to vent to someone I trust in the church...There are so many people who are so supportive of this play & with doing whatever I need of them, but it just takes one NegativeNelly to tear ya down, ya know? SO, here's to not letting negativity (i.e. the evil one) get to me...This is all for the Lord, anyway...

Okay, seriously, better go...King went to the store real quick, and Lord knows Princess isn't going to sleep by herself...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, December 01, 2006

Hey, Happy Friday!! I've had another busy week here, going here, going there, doing this, getting ready for that...It's Christmastime, ya know?!?!

Wednesday I got up & Princess & I dressed earlier than normal, and went to the Teacher Store, then Flower Factory, and then to Walmart...I got a lot accomplished, really, but WOW what a long day!! We met King at Fricsh's for supper (Princess still has free kids' meal coupons from Halloween), then we went to church for Awana. I'm really frustrated with church right now, so I won't say anything more...Except to ask for your prayers, please? I realize that no church is perfect, and if we left (and we don't really feel that's what the Lord wants us to do, but it's definately tempting, ya know?), we'd just find another church with either the same problems or different problems, but still problems. A wise man said a few weeks ago, "There aren't really problem people, just people with problems." I know that he spoke those words to me for the Lord, because every time I get frustrated with the whole situation those words pop into my head like a little bit of peace. It's just REALLY hard to hang on to that. I'm thinking of just "laying low" for a while after the Christmas play is over. I'll still do Sunday School & Praise Team, but other than that, I don't know that I really want to do any more. I've entertained thoughts about setting a date for a women's luncheon in January, but, again, I just don't feel like doing anything there right now. ARGHHH!!!! I wish I could really put into words what I'm frustrated over, but it's more like I'm just frustrated with an attitude more than just something someone/some people did, ya know? Double ARGH!!

Okay, I just had to share that....So, anyways, that was Wed...

Thursday we met Missy, FAB & Baby at the mall...we were late, and I felt really bad about it, because we would've been on time if I didn't have to email Worship Minister (play stuff), so I was frustrated about that. I'm serious, next year, I'm not in charge, I'll just help with the Christmas program...Anyways, so we met them at the mall, and Princess was a P-I-L-L!! We got Chick-Fil-A for lunch, and she was only eating waffle fries, and not any of her chicken. Well, I told her to eat at least one bite of her chicken before she could play in the play area. She took a bite, and chewed & chewed & chewed. I told Missy to go ahead & take FAB & Baby over to the play area & we'd be along in a minute...15 minutes later she was still chewing!! ARGH!!!!!!! I put her in her stroller & we went over to the play area because I thought she'd give up once she saw FAB playing & having a good time in the play area...NOPE. She chewed & chewed & chewed. I even had been giving her some milk to drink because I thought she'd swallow it that way, but the last drink of milk she got, she let dribble out of her mouth. So, I said, "NO PLAY PLACE FOR YOU TODAY!!" & she lost out that way. She whined for a little bit while we were shopping, but I was NOT going to let her run the show. I told Missy that Princess had better be greatful we were in a public place because if we had been at home? She'd have swallowed that chicken after 2 minutes!! LOL Oh, I was so aggravated with her!!

Anyways, I didn't really shop at the mall, just looked around. It'd been a while since I'd been there (when Princess was a little younger, we used to go to the mall all the time so I could just get out of the house & see adults!! LOL), but since we moved to HH, it's been a little more difficult to go "all the way over there." (Like it's hours away :) hehe). It was neat to see all the different changes going on, and I got a few gift ideas for the people on my list :)

Thursday night we went to the Cheesecake Factory!! :) YUM-O!! WOW wast that awesome!! It was expensive, but not as expensive as I was dreading. We'll definately split next time, but since it was our first visit, we decided to get our own meal & even our own slice of cheesecake :) Dulce De Leche...AWESOME!! :) I wanted the Caramel Pecan Turtle cheesecake, but they were out. Steve got some kind of peanut butter white chocolate seasonal one, and it was yummy, too :) Very neat place & atmosphere. It was our first time at the Greene, too, and it was very cute :) It was raining, so we didn't get to walk anywhere but around the block, but it was very pretty. The Christmas lights are neat :)

Tonight I went to K-Mart (finally got out my lay-away :)) & Target. Man, oh, man, could I spend a truckload of $$ at Target!! LOL I love it, and their scrapbooking stuff is really cool, too. I like their Christmas stuff, too...Anyways, I had to get a baby shower gift for tomorrow, but I got some M&M's & laundry detergent for me...wait, that's not exciting...

Anyways, tomorrow's the baby shower, then tomorrow night is GIRL NIGHT!! with Carebear & EnglishTeacher!! :) Daisy might come, too, but she said she'd asked Mom to go shopping before I told her about girl night, so we'll see. I think King's got the Princess for me, too :) After Thursday, I need a break!! LOL

Well, on an upside with Princess, so you don't think too badly about her, she's wearing her "big girl" underwear again, and keeping it dry all day!! YAY!! That's only today, though...

Better go...lots to do, and I want to go to bed early tonight :)

Love you guys!! :) Merry Christmas!!