Last Post for a few days...

Well, I go in tomorrow VERY EARLY (6a.m. we have to BE there), and I will be holding my baby boy in my arms instead of on my bladder at LEAST by tomorrow night!! LOL :) Hopefully sooner!! :)

My inlaws are enroute as we speak (although, they didn't leave until 11:30ish instead of 10a.m. as they had planned...I can't say much about that since we do that with just about every big trip we take...) But, they will be here sometime tonight. We have a 30th birthday party (not mine!! LOL) scheduled tonight at a skating rink (COOL!! oh, wait...I don't think I'll be strapping on any skates tonight...) but we'll see how it goes...I might just take it easy tonight, we'll see...

Yesterday was an interesting day. I had a wedding shower to go to (it's really been a long time since I've been to a wedding shower!! Most of my friends have already had their 2nd Baby shower by now!! HAHA), but this was for a cousin & his bride-to-be, and they're a bit younger than I am!! :) SO, that was fun...Abbey & I picked Mom up & headed over there, then afterwards did some last-minute running around (I needed one more "leisure" outfit for the hospital, and Mom wanted to get this cool drink jug thing from Sam's Club (It is REALLY cool...she says she's throwing out her punch fountain because it's junk...it only worked, like, 2-3 times...but this thing is really pretty & has one of those spouty-things at the bottom...anyways...). So, we "ran" around & did that, then dropped Mom back off at her house & Abbey & I went home for a little while (so she could "rest" & I could clean the kitchen...or so I thought...

So, we got home, and of course, Abbey zonked out on the way home...Well, as soon as I picked her up to carry her inside she woke up & got her second wind...then I saw what my husband had been up to all day while we were gone...I have never been so mad in all my life...He was trying to do the "deep" cleaning (as I would say) without sorting through the "junk" laying on top!! I was livid!! Seriously, I was just so disappointed & overwhelmed, because usually when we leave like that & he's home to work at his stuff you can tell he's done something other than move the loveseat into the kitchen...But NOTHING was put away that was on the loveseat, and even though he'd done 2 loads of laundry, they were piled on top of the big couch...Now, this wouldn't be so bad, except that Chelle & I had just worked in the living room really hard, and I was planning to straighten the kitchen up, only to find that I couldn't get INTO the kitchen...and I'm 9 mos pregnant, people!! Do I really need to make excuses for my fluctuating hormones?!?!?! Let me hear the pregnant women say "Amen!" lol Anyways, that, and it just didn't look like he'd done a daggone thing in the 5 hours we were gone...and his parents coming in 24 hours...ARGH!!! Yeah, we might've had a loud "discussion." Okay, very loud, because I am a yeller... That is one thing I don't share with you, Brain Twin!! LOL :)

Anyways, after I calmed down (which took a while, btw) and apologized to Abbey for the ugly display her parents didn't hide very well (we tried going to our room with the door closed, but she still heard us...), we were off to Fazoli's to meet Mom & Dad so they could watch Abbey for us while we went to Candlelight (which was AWESOME, btw!!), and we talked a LOT more calmly & "made up" (minds out of the gutter, people, we were in the van!! LOL) & even prayed together (okay, so it was over dinner, but we held hands, still), I think because we were going to Candlelight...and I needed that last night...It helped to really make me see clearer & see that, while it's OK to get mad, we all get mad, my behavior was petty & yes, childish...Hormones or not...but, anyways..."He's still workin' on me...to make me what I ought to be..."

I get so frustrated with myself AFTER I react like that...I am SO not proud of that...I'm sharing this ugliness because I know we all have moments we're not proud of, and I just wanna be real...I'm gonna fail, repeatedly, this side of heaven, and that probably won't be the last time I react like that...but hopefully these incidents will get further & farther apart, and not as loud (lol) as the time before...

SO, glad I shared that...Steve just walked in & was reading over my shoulder & asked, "Why do you have to share our fights?!?!" I hope he reads the above paragraph someday...

Love you all & hope I haven't made anyone uncomfortable!! LOL :) We're doing better today, and just need to do those little things you do before "company" comes :)...I'm sure Missy will share pictures of Eli tomorrow as soon as she can!! :)